Feeling lonely all the time?

whenever im at home, i feel very lonely. Usually im home alot because i no longer trust all my friends and i hate them all. I only have one good friend and he doesnt really help me, only offers me drugs which is ok but doesnt help in the long run. Also, all i hear from him is that hes having a secret relationship with a used to be good friend of mine and makes me feel depressed that i dont have that girl that would make me happy. I always have thoughts about a girl that wouldnt want to do anything with me, just being really good friends, but yet she doesnt text me to c whats up. In school, i feel isolated. All I really want is my music and a good pair of headphones. i feel like a girl would help me, im currently trying to get over the girl i always think about. No one that I want to hang out with texts or calls me to chill. I just want this year to be over and go to college, boulder!